i'm sorry for all the quiet! see, i go through periods of quietness and loudness. sometimes i want to be nothing. i'm a child and all the attention is overwhelming to me. instead of breathing i just close my eyes and pretend it doesn't exist. but it doesn't go away and i feel guilty, like a lover that keeps coming back to me after i ignore him and treat him like he isn't real, and i know i don't deserve it.

but i don't want to be a hermit right now.

i have a lot of new work. not as much as much as i'd like. but a lot you're yet to see. most of it is for magazine editorial, so i'm not allowed to show. which is horrible (until it comes out). but i have to pay rent.

i won soya. it was crazy. i was sitting there at the awards night, so many important people sitting all around me, she began to open the envelope and i was saying under my breath 'not nirrimi, not nirrimi, it can't be me'. i was trying not to get my hopes up but my heart was beating a million miles a second. then it was me and i can't really remember much. i was in shock.

i spent the prize money on a new camera and a macbook, it's going to change my work for the better. and next year i am going to new york and hopefully russia. i want to shoot a film there. oh yeah, i'm getting into film. did i tell you?

i started a blog last night, a blog i am really going to start using. it hasn't any entries yet but my first entry will be new work. please follow and bookmark. i promise to fill it up with inspiration for you!

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i hope you're all well, don't hate me too much

love, n

not only am i now seventeen and also signed to LOOK productions, but i also (along with my lover) made it into the shortlist of SOYA (which could mean $10,000 and a NYC mentorship with tim richardson).

so yeah, it's safe to say i'm pretty happy.

i love m no less than when we first met. he is my warmth in this cool. he is so good to me, so wonderful and caring and loving. despite so many people telling me moving in with him would ruin us, i've never been happier in my entire life. even the being broke is kind of fun, haha.

life is wonderful.

hope you are all well!!

n

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email nirrimi@gmail.com for more info + to book

n + m

moving into our studio apartment today and life is bliss
my birthday is days away and i'm spending it with m!

have been start-stopping prose but wanting to submit
so i might just do that soon.

in federation square yesterday it began to rain and all the schoolchildren (many long-haired girls and girlish boys) hid from the wet where me and m were sitting
the om film camera was around my neck and it was heaven
when we're not broke we'll get them developed and you'll love them! (i hope)

hope you're all well and have love in your life
n

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vintage inspired set for sale tonight, keep your eyes open for colour and befores and afters on the blog shortly.

n