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nirrimi joy hakanson
Artist | Photography
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Current Residence: i
Favourite genre of music: you
Shell of choice: francis
Skin of choice: caplin
i remember being a child. this long-haired, twiggy thing with delicious dreams of becoming a movie starlet or a princess. of course, you're not entirely logical when you are that young. your head is in the clouds and the future is a million miles away. i think when the clouds begin to clear and you start to see the future there in the sky, you begin to grow up. life begins to sink in. you realise you are not beautiful or elegant enough to become a princess, and your eyes don't sparkle enough to be a movie star. try again.

even though my clouds cleared away sooner than anyone else i knew my age, i was still breathing them. only suddenly i knew who i was, or moreso, who i wanted to be. i was fourteen and i wrote in my diary "i am nirrimi and because of that, i'm going to live. really live." and for me that meant throwing myself headfirst into photography and life. i didn't attend school much, i spent days planning, learning to retouch and taking pictures. my studies suffered and my passion bloomed. it was "illogical and thoughtless" but i thought, why should i listen to a miserable, high school teacher about how to live my life?

my grandparents lived by the alice river, on an enormous property with fruit trees and a treehouse by the water where you could watch cows gather at sunset. i remember sitting in the treehouse with a blank book, filling it with ideas for pictures. the passion welled up in me and i saw the world through picture-finding eyes. i miss the excitement now, which only greets me sometimes in memory. i discovered that came with my growing up, it became harder to feel.

there is resentment and jealousy from others at times, as though people think i am undeserving of the attention i've gotten or the talent i've developed. as though it is all luck and really, they deserve it much more. but i have worked and i have obsessed. i've left my mind inside my camera and forgotten to use my head, pushing away friends and family and being regretfully selfish. i've forced myself to grow up rather quickly. and now things are beginning to happen for me. things i only ever imagined. not just with photography, but also with my life and lover (but that's a story for another day).

i've learnt that to make dreams come true, you have to be obsessed. truly, utterly obsessed. i think of obsession as passion squared, and if you have passion for something people will see that. if you go through an entire day without doing something towards your dream, you're not obsessed enough to make it happen.

sure, some people get lucky, but we're not going to wait around to see if that's us. we need to make things happen for ourselves, because we are the only ones in control of our lives. with enough obsession and work any dream can come true for you. you will be disappointed, sleepless and somedays you will want to give up. but you will be happy, because you are living.

i can't wait to let my children dream the way my parents let me. teach them that as long as they have the love and motivation to work towards their wildest fantasies, they will happen.

never give up on all your loves and dreams, let them out to be loud!…;< please comment here! :)
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OcioProduction Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Smile sometimes!!! ;) 
compliments for your works :)
labeccabright Featured By Owner 6 days ago   Photographer
Gorgeous photographs & prose. Love! :heart: 
writeacrossme Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2015  Student Writer
I come to this profile often, very often. I've read ll your stories a hundred times over, there's nothing quite like them. Although I love your blog I really miss the short stories you used to post on here. Though you will probably never see this, thank you so much for the inspiration you've given me.
don22754 Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2015
Wise sentiments. Go for it!
CloudsKeeper Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Small Floating Cloud - F2U! BEAUTIFUL GALLERY!Small Floating Cloud - F2U! 
JubliantTroo Featured By Owner May 12, 2015  Student Digital Artist
So I recently went to your homepage and read your bio and started crying. You are so much of an inspiration to me and made me contemplate even more about the decisions that I'm about to take now that I've passed school..
Just thought I'd tell you- and say thanks! :heart:
kindajarr Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2014
Hello, I've been following your page for 6-7 years.. I haven't opened deviant art in like 4 years perhaps, but I remembered you today and so I reactivated my account because I forgot your URL.
It makes me sad to see you haven't posted in years.. I miss your work, I hope you're safe and doing okay. I hope you and matt are still in love.
Kinda J <3
etre-aime Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2015
here's her blog if you're interested. <3
Sunday--Jane Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2014   Photographer
Hello dearie! c: I was wondering if you would like to join our group Little-Darlings? This group is for artwork that fits the recent trend of very soft colors, with an enchanting and magical feel to them.
A lot of your photography fits the theme perfectly and I would love for you to be a part of it ♥
dream93 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2014  Student General Artist
Happy birthday!
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